9 Years of sobriety !

One more year has passed …. And I´m still here – sober !
This has been the case since February 2nd, 2011.
But No – I’m not ” that fantastic” or “strong”. I’m not boasting about it either!
– It was a DECISION I made, and I am grateful that I finally got the insight to make a change.
You can actually live without alcohol!
I simply don´t get along with it. Or is it that we actually do, alcohol & I?
It’s just that it takes command over me. But I don´t allow that to happen anymore.
I´m fully aware that alcohol can also be fun and positive many times.
The question is just “for how long”, and where the boundaries go ……?

Is there anything more to say than what I’ve already said and written before ?
Not really. Life is just moving on – and it feels good !
– I don´t HAVE TO drink alcohol anymore !
Only the thought of that just 1 or 2 beers would make me feel bad wants me to back off. I have friends that have told me that only this small amount of alcohol can affect your mood, both when drinking and the day after. Unnecessary and meaningless negative discussions suddenly appear …
Is it really worth it? For a moment’s “relaxation with a few drinks”?
Alcohol affects your mood more than you think – or more than you want to believe.
It has struck me many times over the years how much quarrel and misunderstandings you avoid when you don´t drink at all, for example in a relation with your wife, husband or whoever is there ?
For 9 years I´ve now been out of all of that ! Life is so much easier now.

But – My “demons” and some of that other shit that goes around in my head , however, have not disappeared. But over time I´ve learned how to deal with it and fight back – and now I´ve actually got pretty good control over myself !
To try to make your ”demons” drown does not work – Because they actually can swim !!
When I was drinking, the demons disappeared ….. for a while …… but then they came back from the deep, and then they also had brought along the devil himself as help and support !!!

No, that´s history now. Today – I´m The Boss ! And only me, myself and I are making the decisions.
My thoughts and my paths are still leading me forwards. The resistance along the way I eventually pass.

Problems are there to be solved – or defeated – in one way or another!

Nalle, February 2:nd 2020

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